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"Patience is a virtue."

I’m not exactly sure where i got this line but it’s been stored in my head for quite sometime now. The problem is, I don’t really know what it means cause knowing my personality, patience is not something that can be associated with me. I’m an aggressor. I attack problems head-on. I take extremly rebellious measures to get my point across. At the end of the war, the aftermath is even worse. Everything in sight bleeds. A heavy tint of crimson flows all-over the place… it just makes the survivors re-think and wish that they didn’t resort to a bloody commotion to uphold what they believe in. What’s even worse is if the person is fighting for something that is really against his will but fought anyway because he felt provoked and he is not going to back down just like that. If this person survives the war, he is left with nothing but regret, wishing that he should have had a more sensible mind coming into the battle.
    Unfortunately for me, I usually tend to be worst of all these cases during battle. I never back down, even if I am fighting for the wrong reasons. I fight aggressively even if I’m really out of place. And after everything else, I’m left with nothing but regret.
    To make everything else a complete disaster, there might have been someone who told advised the warrior to back down. To just let all the anger go away. Let it setlle… then, a peaceful pact can be made after the thickness of all the emotions. If he listened to that voice, then he wouldn’t have learned the lesson the hard way. He doesn’t have to carry regret with all its weight and pain.
    I guess the point of all these is that one should learn to choose their battles (surely not all of them). One should be clear on what the possible outcomes to could be. Having good foresight is another thing before engaging into something as destructive as this. One must understand the possible consequences BEFORE any form of commotion. One must also learn to swallow once pride once in a while if he knows that he’s fighting for the wrong reasons. And lastly, one must understand the meaning of patience. Not to keep on forcing the issue… it just prolongs the battle. It prolongs the pain… It becomes more destructive. Sometimes, one might even be fighting an ally.
    I was watching a cartoon this morning while nibbling on some unwanted breakfast and it really was something that fits this frame of thought. It’s about this shaolin kid who wants to learn about fire bending. He asked the master to teach him as fast as possible but the master was insistent on patience and control. The master said that fire was very destructive. The master even told him about a former student of his who didn’t understand what control meant. Out of dismay, he sent this student away. Now, on the day that the shaolin kid was finally able to create and manipulate fire, he ends up hurting a friend. The master was very disappointed with the shaolin kid. Suddenly, the former student of the master (the one who was undisciplined and out of control) came to their house in pursuit of proving his master wrong. Arriving in three warships, he showered the little village of the shaolin kid and the master with balls of fire. The master was cornered by the apprentices of the former student so the master created a tornado of fire (him as the center) and vanished from the enemies’ sights. Now, the shaolin kid (having heard of what’s happening) rushed to the shore to help his master. The former student and the shaolin kid battled. The former student threw generous portions of fire at the shaolin kid but the shaolin kid (after contemplating on the importance of control) just ducked and dodged the attacks. The shaolin kid even hopped on to the 3 ships but the foremer student kept on attacking while the shaolin kid kept on dodging. After all that, the shaolin kid said that the battle was over. The former student asked, "How come? You haven’t even launched a single attack?" As the shaolin kid jumped back to the shore, he watched the three buring ships while the former student sank with them.
    That’s all for now…………………